you know i am wondering if any of the people i know would even care to hold my hand for a minute and tell me that everything is going to be alright and sit next to me and let me to cry and not judge or make me stop crying,just let me cry.
but i know that none will and that makes me sad over and over again,i hear myself crying and i become so angry,but i hate hurting others.but it seems that others like hurting me with everything they got.
i am really tired,but although i am sad and my heart is shattered to pieces, pieces that can’t be restored easily,i always smile and don’t tell anything.
i always go out in the mountain then i will go into the woods and cry there,in that way i will be sure that no one will hear me and criticize me because i cry.
no one likes me, everybody think i am an idiot and they say i am weird.
damn it,in what way should i say that i am not from your world and i can’t be
in a crowd i feel so alone,i feel that everything is falling,they all look at me and laugh they tell me that i am ugly they tell me that you are not good enough, i know that i am not enough i am not and i never will be.
i always have a question in myself why do everyone that called me friend are not with me now and they left like i was some sort of paper or garbage.
maybe i am an idiot, maybe i am what they call me i don’t even know it,i can’t take it anymore.
i hate them with every fiber of my being all of them and its basically everybody but there are some that make me feel safe sometimes,and you know it it’s you yeah you,thank you so much you don’t know what it means for me,words can’t describe what i want to tell thank you again.